What to do; what to do?
Updated: Apr 28, 2021
So, my application to Emerson College is done. My main project for ENG-421 is also done. And I got a week-long break after this semester ends before the next one starts. For the first time in a while, I feel like I don't know what to do with myself. Sometimes, I wonder if that explains some of my desire to enroll in a MFA program. But at the same time, I can clearly see how much better my writing has gotten since I began classes. I mean, I can write more in my free time between semesters and between when SNHU ends and any MFA program begins. And I do have my new collection of short stories that I want to complete by the end of the year… But I'm running into a lull of story ideas at the moment. I was out for a walk a few weeks ago (a month ago?) and came up with an idea that I wrote in a few days—tops—but after that, I hit a dry spell. I have a few ideas that led to story starts, but I'm not certain where the stories will take me. Will they be scary? Can I make them unpredictable? Why does a spider hiding under her couch frighten Yasmine so much?
I think part of the problem is that I really want to get back to working on the manuscript I started before my Fiction Workshop classes steered me back to short stories. One, I think I'm better now than when I started that first draft. And two, I think I'm better prepared to sit down and plot the story better. But I know that if I get accepted to a MFA program, my project over the course of my classes will be to work on this manuscript from beginning to end, so I want to save it for that. Plus, the MFA classes will provide me with "free" feedback as I progress, and that alone will be invaluable. And I've already made plans (and announcements) about my next collection of short stories, so I HAVE to get that done.
I guess I got a lot on my plate for someone who doesn't know what to do with himself…